Patience

Patience is a easy concept to grasp, but not an easy one to carry out.  Waiting has always been a struggle for me, once I get an idea in my head I want to pursue it right away.  In doing this, I sometimes forget to ask God what his plans are.  Because whether we like it or not, his plans are perfect as well as his timing.               
Last month I returned from a mission trip in Scotland, an experience that changed my life.  The Lord finally broke my heart, and revealed his plan for me, being a missionary and reaching out to orphans.  However, he did not reveal the time or place.  A few weeks after we returned I felt the Lord leading my heart to Kenya. I have prayed about this a lot and have had numerous confirmations.  However, the timing is still a mystery.  I want to go straight after I graduate High School next June.  But a want is so much different from a calling. I want to go because I am ready to get going and live out God's plan for me.  Recently I have begun to wonder if he wants me to attend college first, or go right after School. Or even take one year off school, spend a year doing missions and then returning and beginning college.  I have had a lot of anxiety about this decision, mainly because I like plans set in stone, especially my plan for my life. I have been struggling with these questions for a few weeks now.  Tonight I finally sat down and prayed for the Lord to reveal anything he had to say to me.  I sat in silence for almost half an hour, finally got frustrated, so I randomly opened my bible and found myself looking at Romans 8:28.  " And we know that for those who love God all  things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."
This whole process is going to take a lot of patience, but tonight the Lord put a peace in my heart, a peace that knows that his plan will unfold with time.