I was not made to be normal....

I was made for so much more than that. 

I know I have not posted in a while.  The past few months have been a spiritual roller coaster for me.  I was on such a "spiritual high"  after Scotland.  But after being back a while, I let the things of this world get to me, and started falling again.  It was not until I visited a friend, that I realized that I had gotten off track. She asked me a simple question "Do you want to be normal?"  My instinctive response to this would have been yes, but judging by her face, I went with no.  And she went on to explain to me that she views the typical Sunday christian as a "normal" Christian.  Someone who talks about God on Sundays, but when Monday rolls around He is shoved in the back of their heads.  The impact of my actions finally hit me, and I came to the realization that I was becoming "normal" again.  I was heading down that road, and I needed to turn around.  I prayed that weekend, more than I had prayed in a while.  And I don't want to be normal.  I want to be that person, that's heart is so sunk into the Lord, that anyone has to find Him, to find me.  I want to be the women that strives to admit my mistakes and work hard to change.  I want to be that women that has a healthy fear of the lord.  The women that will stop at nothing to stand up for what I believe in and will pray and love in all situations. And I after thinking about all of this for days, a voice popped into my head saying "Whats stopping you?"  And I discovered, the only thing stopping me, was me.  So, that moment, I stopped saying I want, and started saying, I am becoming.  Walking with Christ takes a lot of time, effort, patience, willingness, and love.  I can do it.  I just can not do it alone.  And the beauty of that is, I am never alone.